Jen's Q and A

So I've had some questions that I've had to answer over the past few years, and posting my thoughts publicly like this is going to cause people to ask them (some have already asked me), so I'll try to answer them as I can...Here goes:

What happened Jen? You were such a strong member of the church.: Well, as I said, I tried to be faithful, I tried so very hard to gain a testimony. I had what I thought were testimonies...but when I reflected on them, were nothing more than me -wanting- something else. My reflections that I had made me ask more questions, they made me want more answers. Those answers never came. It just let to me questioning more. I was never satisfied. I read the scriptures, prayed, paid my tithes. Yet, I felt nothing. With that said, it was all of my trying that then lead to my ultimate reflections. It's not that I don't want to believe. I really do, I want something more. I want to know that I'll be with Scott and Tempe and Mat forever and always. There is such a comfort in that...but I can't bring myself to be involved in something I do not ultimately believe in.

What about the kids? How will they be raised?: In the beginning, without anything. Religion, beliefs, those topics will not be discussed. That's not to say they won't see it when we go to others houses. But when they start asking, we'll start discussing at a high level. When they start asking more detailed questions, that's when we'll allow them to go to church with others and really start discussing religion, and beliefs. Mat is just now to the age where he is asking alot of questions. We're allowing him to go with his Nana and Papa to church. He knows that Mommy and Daddy don't believe in God, but Nana and Papa and his Yaya all do. Mat knows that no matter what he ends up believing in we will all love him. He also is reminded by us all that whatever question he has, he can ask us. Right now, he says 'I believe and don't believe', which is perfectly fine:)

What about people who believe what do you think of them?: Uhh, the same way I always thought of them. They are people, they are friends, they are relatives. I don't think of them in any more or any less of a light. The people I know are from all walks of life. I respect them and their beliefs, just as I hope they respect mine.

Anyway, as more questions come in I'll answer them:)